I didn't want to go into details.
Yes there has been a previous violence - physical and psychological.
Yes I have been forgiving and trying to move on for the sake of the family kind of person. But that has been on going for nearly 6 years.
I don't want to live my life this way.
He had a very difficult court case in which I stood by him and I have lived allowing social services to visit and check on my child's safety.
I have put up with a lot of "looking around" by him, and every time I end up explaining it to myself that I am insecure or for the sake of the little one should give us another chance.
I feel like I am trapped and I know I don't want to feel this way no more.
He is a great dad.
I want to leave but I haven't got any help from my family.
How can I be working and looking after my daughter??
I have focused on my family - I still love him, sure I do. But that's until next time I catch him on looking or doing something.
I need to move on but it's got to be with strong foundations so it can work!
I don't want to waste my life as many other women have, believing it's going to be better. I don't want to feel like I am walked all over.
In comparison to those who go through the violence their partner tells them they are sorry and it's never going to happen again. But it does.
My life has been the same.
Every time I catch him on wrong doing he denies it or says he shouldn't have done it and he is sorry and declares his love and all that blah blah blah.
Please You are a woman and I need more advise.
Otherwise I would not have come to this place to look for anything.
It's toxic to me - we are a loving family but he took me for granted too many times.
PS. I have been living in UK since I was 15, studied and worked until I started to look after my family. I am Polish and so far not been worried on getting a British Passport. My husband has a British Passport as his mum is Irish/English. We also got married here in 2009.
If that information helps out a bit I thought You may need it.
Awaiting Your reply,