Hello Clare and thank you. I will do my best to explain.
I stayed with the baby for 2 months and then had to go to work in order to pay my mortgage and pay for my and baby's living.
I breast feeded for 1.5 years.
I leave to the office at 9 and come back at 5:30. All my time free of work I spend with my son. I am with him trough all nights with few wake ups every few hours to calm him. I spend my holidays with him ans all week-ends.
The father stays with the little on from 9:30 till 5:30 on working days, apart from a couple of weeks every couple of months when his family is visiting. Then my mother steps in while I work.
I can not afford the nursery, that is why I was forced by life to allow the father to stay with the baby, although I could not be unhappier with the situation.
He lives half with us, half at his brother's place. He is not registered at my home and does not consider it his home.