40mg citalopram 4 years ago not currently on med. now. anxious, weepy, low self esteem, fear of social situations, even family meetings,feeling that death is the only thing left to look forward to,not that I would contemplate suicide,no interest in most things,feeling sad all the time even though I do no0t appear so to other people;able to function in daily life. but tired of FEELING so bad all the time.
I have , and that may well be my next step,bu what is holding me back is that I did not feel that they made much difference to the way I was feeling. My counsellor at the time said that I may not ever be able to feel differently as my neural pathways have been already formed as this condition has been with me for as long as I can remember.
thank you so much for your help.