Only since the nightmare, never before the nightmare.
Forgot to mention I was on tramadol when I had the nightmare - came off it straight away...
I just thought there was nothing definitive in your reply.
I just want to know how to stop them! They aren't going away and I love my son and I just want to be back to myself.
These thoughts are disgusting and make me sick, I can't just wait and around hoping they'll go away!!!