I become very unself-conscious,and watch her face,shaping with my mouth the words she is saying as she speaks.With a `jump` ,I become self -aware.I have `caught` myself doing this three times now on three separate occasions.
I don't know how long I have been doing it.I first became aware in the last 3 months.
I am playing bridge with girlfriends and notice I am deeply relaxed,especially in the second before I catch myself.My friend had a really worried frown as she looked at me.There is so much conversation going on that it doesn't seempossible to ask her how I seem to be,besides she isn't the worlds most discreet person!
No,I am not deaf,speak as well as ever,play bridge,and don't lose focus.Dont be afraid to tell me its dementia,if that's what you suspect!
I have asked Richard,my partner,if he has seen me doing this mouthing twice,and he says no ,he has not.
My memory is like my friends,we all lose things , have to use a diary.I don't tail off in the middle of a sentence.I realised recently that I had felt that I might behave inappropriately pick at my nose in public,but it was a feeling that passed.I have good mental health now ,after a difficult life.I say that ,meaning that I know what it is to be anxious and troubled.Dad drank.But now I have been happy for 20 years.