This is Dr. David
I am sorry you have been battling these issues for such a long time.
I am sorry you have been having so much anxiety and aggitation.
there are medications which can help over time treat anxiety and aggitation
Nembutal is phenobarbital and is used for seizures.
do you have seizures?
Mitrazepine is remeron and is used for sleep.
pregabalin is for nerve pain.
propranolol is for high blood pressure.
omeprazole is for stomach acid.
I don't see that you are on medications to help decrease depression or help with anxiety symptoms
like an SSRI agent like celexa or lexapro or zoloft or paxil?
it sounds like you definitely need to see a psychiatrist and get on an agent which can help with anxiety and depression.
that would be an SSRI agent like celexa, lexapro, zoloft, or paxil.
diazepam is valium and is a long acting benzo which can also be used for short periods of time to help decrease anxiety.
you should ask your doctor to refer you to see a psychiatrist if they will not prescribe you an SSRI agent to help with depression and anxiety.
unfortunately, we can not write out prescriptions to clients over the internet because we can't see or examine clients.
are you willing to ask your GP to refer you to see a psychiatrist or psychologist?
I doubt a psychiatrist will tell you to kill yourself.
that is wrong that they would tell you to kill yourself.
you should not try to kill yourself anymore.
how can I help you?
I am sorry.
that is not right.
they should not be telling you to commit suicide.
you are asking for help
there is help in the form of medications like SSRI agents like zoloft or paxil.
these are simple medications which can be used to treat depression and anxiety.
you have depressive symptoms and suicide and anxiety.
it really sounds like you need treatment.
bring the list to your doctor again next time and ask why they won't prescribe an SSRI agent for you.
they are simple medications and not expensive.
let me know if you have other questions.
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you can tell your GP to pick which one they would like to use
like Prozac, or Paxil, or Zoloft, or Lexapro, or Celexa
those are the best long term medications to use for anxiety and depression.
they are not addictive.
and can not be abused.
medications like diazepam can be abused and be addictive.
given your history of manipulative behavior, they most likely will not give you diazepam.
then you need to try another psychiatrist
or change to another GP doctor.
good luck to you
hang in there.