I have been suffering with some symptoms since early childhood, which surprised methat no one else figured out and supported me on, all these years I've been livingwith them, thinking that it may pass and I'll overcome them, but even to thisday, the symptom are still continous and seem to have worsened over time.This is badly effecting my ability to find work.Not just in interviews, but in general situations, I have panic attacked where my voicesounds all in fear and I fade out, sweat and shake and fear that people don'tlike me and don't accept me the way I am.I get low mooded too often and don't feel like cheering up.I never know what to say to people, if it's the wrong thing and if theyanswer "yeess, of course it's that way!",, my chest hurts few seconds, I getlow mooded and just want to hide away.I've been trying to live with this problem since childhood, thinking it would go away.If people are watching me, I can't really continue an activity or task, in general, I never seem tofinish what I started.I start to feel ill, if I'm in a public place with too many people, I feel the need to get out.I've been shy all my life and still am, espeically with my sweating and shaking which I can'tseem to control.I want to be out-going like everyone else, but I can't seem to be.I look through people, not at them and seem to over-talk them, finishing their sentence orI don't know what to say.I find it difficult to focus on a task, usually I skip tasks, but never mean to, but that just happensthat way. I don't wanna suffer in slience anymore.
This GP note was written, as I find it difficult to express myself face to face.
Having what I've explained to you, is there any help or anymore I could be referred to by my GP or here ? I've had a lot of wasted years and am most likely not to refuse any help offered.
Based on what I've wrote in my GP notes.
How can I explain all that in a smaller way ?
If I'm going to get help, I need to make sure I don't miss any out.
I'm not too keen on my local medical center, that's why it takes me so long to book an appointment.
I'm glad that I know what it is causing all my problems with social and livelihood.
I'll tell my GP as much as I can and bring a smaller GP note with me, saves missing any out.
It would certainly explain the shaking, sweating and shyness during face to face communication.
The fear attacks and looking through people, not at them.
All this does cause me to be low mooded and not want to cheer up.
I'm glad that I've found a specialist online who I can contact, at least as a first step.
I want to update you on my actions.
I'm going to see my GP this coming week and tell him about my symptoms and see what help is offered.
I'll accept talking therapy and support sessions, although, I won't
accept medication, as I don't like what I read about the side-effects.
Medication, I'll only have if all else fails.
Blurry vision, sickness, weight gain, I want to avoid that.
Yes additional services.
cognitive behavioral therapy, that you mentioned a few days
ago and any other help.