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Hello,
This is all very difficult for me. I have dealt with this issue before (by myself), but every now and then I get extremely anxious about it and feel like I’m in a nightmare.
My background is I’m a female in my twenties with moderate generalized anxiety disorder and OCD and have had mild depression the past.
I worry excessively and ruminate about things although that has gotten slightly less over the years, whilst the OCD has gotten worse. I’ve been working on it recently, and have managed to cut down all the usual OCD symptoms and some Pure O symptoms, which has been very hard but worth it. However, there is a worry I have that I can’t bring myself to talk about.
In the past and still now sometimes, although I try to not think about it, I have a sexual fantasy that I feel extremely ashamed and disgusted about. I have previously thought it might be an OCD intrusive sexual thought, but because I actually feel real sexual desire and sometimes masturbate from it, I think it might be a sexual fantasy.
Ever since I was little I can remember having this 'fantasy' or whatever it is. I would imagine eating loads of food and gradually becoming fatter. The 'fantasy' actually turned me on, and continues to do so and sometimes leads to masturbation. This is what worries me. If it was an OCD thought, then would it actually turn me on? I don't know if it would. Does this mean I am a feedee or gainer? Someone who gains erotic pleasure from gaining weight?
However, I have no desire whatsoever in real life to actually gain weight. I am average weight and have quite a good figure, slim but curvy which is the way I like it. I exercise a lot, and I feel much, much worse if I'm not toned up, haven't exercised in a few days or feel like I've put a few pounds on. I don't get any erotic pleasure from actually putting on weight. Also, although I have a healthy appetite and enjoy food I get no erotic pleasure whatsoever from eating. In fact, when I was about fourteen I ate very little for a while and almost became anorexic. Also, I'm straight and attracted to men who are physically fit and slim.
I don’t know if this is an OCD intrusive thought, or a sexual fantasy (that is only a fantasy as I’d feel disgusted about this in real life). If it’s only a fantasy, am I worrying excessively over it because I have generalized anxiety disorder and OCD and do I need to accept that even people with so called normal sexualities have strange sexual fantasies sometimes? Or does the fact that I have this sexual fantasy mean I am abnormal?
I'm extremely worried about and don't want to be someone who gets erotic pleasure from things like that. It disgusts me, worries me and makes me feel guilty like I'm a horrible, deviant person. It also puts me off getting into a sexual relationship with a guy. Does the fact I don't want to feel like this mean it's an OCD thing?
Please help me figure this out, I'm so worried by it.
Submitted: 1 year ago.
Category: Medical
Expert:  DrRussMD replied 1 year ago.
HelloI think it is a pure OCD symptoms to worry about the fantasy.That is all.The fantasy itself is meaningless. OK, so that is an initial answer….Please use reply to expert if you have further questions. When you are ready, please click a positive rating [hopefully excellent]. If you forgot something, come back. I am here daily.
Customer: replied 1 year ago.
Thank for your answer. It make sense for me that it would be Pure O to worry about the fantasy. You say the fantasy itself is meaningless, does this mean it’s just a fantasy similar to unusual fantasies other heterosexual women with normal sexualities get? Eg- rape fantasies that they wouldn’t want in real life? Or is it weirder than that?
Expert:  DrRussMD replied 1 year ago.
Yes
What turns people on is not something that should be worried about for the most part, and in fact a gaining weight fantasy is not as problematic nor comparable to a rape fantasy, which might or might not indicate problems.
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Customer: replied 1 year ago.
That helps a lot. However, I personally feel disgusted that I have this fantasy (although I wouldn’t want it in real life) and that it says I am strange. Does it?
Expert:  DrRussMD replied 1 year ago.
No it does not.
Your dwelling on it, however, means that you need to discuss it with your prescribing doctor.
please click a positive rating [hopefully excellent]. If you forgot something, come back. I am here daily.
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