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These are common thoughts when you are suffering from depression but it shows that the disease is at the stage which needs medical therapy so that further problems can be avoided. Since depression can be well controlled with medications so i would recommend you to see a psychiatrist and get a prescription for antidepressant medications as this would improve your quality of life.
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