Yes, I know cheating is never an excuse I get that. But he only texted her for a day and a half, I saw the text. Sure he didn't fess up to it but when I found out about it he took responsibility of it and was sorry about it. I gave him another chance for that because I know people all make mistakes and I know he is not one to make it again or do anything like that.
But obv the few months that we tried again after I found out, we tried to make it work but I didn't heal i just jumped right back into the relationship after I found out which I know was bad. But we tried to make it work but I got paranoid, checking his emails texts which was stupid cos I said i forgave him. I really want to this to work. I mean at the time we broke up I had no life which I think had a big impact on why we were like that. I had no social life, no job, no money and my life was revolved around him. But few weeks before we broke up, I found a job and we both agreed it was going to be great for us. Since we will both have lives, but obv we both broke up and cant see where this new life will take us.
I wrote him this letter of how I really felt about him and tbh I know this sounds stupid but honestly I think he is the one for me. Like you just know, I mean I am only 20 and he was my first serious boyfriend. But I've dated many guys and its nothing like how it is with me and him.
Anyways back to the letter, I had a feeling I should write it to him and send it but Im undecided because of what he would say.