Hi, my ex finished our relationship over a year ago, we sold the house and went our separate ways. Our relationship was passionate and intense, but various issues arose which resulted in him more than me calling it a day. It was a very difficult time as I felt we could have worked things out if he wasn't so stubborn. However, a year later, yesterday in fact, I spoke to him on the phone and asked if we could meet up as I wanted some professional advice from him and also to see him as we haven't spoken in such a long time. Yes secretly I wanted desperately to see him again but played it cool, as friends. However, once mentioned meeting up, he paused then said his girlfriend wouldn't be too happy as she gets very jealous, especially if she thought he was with me! I felt like he put a knife through my heart. He was the one who said he doesn't want another relationship - yet he's all of a sudden found a new girlfriend. By the way he's 58 hence no rush to enter into another relationship. He said he'd get back to me though about the advice. Problem is I have a feeling he doesn't have a girlfriend but is scared of getting hurt again or falling for me again, but how cruel to lead me to believe he's with someone. Is he just wanting to hurt me or make me jealous? I'm so confused and miss him so much, why is he putting up these barriers when I know he still cares for me? If he calls in response to the advice I wanted how should I be with him? I've tried to be up beat, confident, but all the while I'm in pieces because of what he said and imagining him with someone else, that's if there's someone else?!
P.S. Just a bit of back-ground as to how we met and why things went wrong:
Basically, we were both in marriages that weren't going well and wanted out, we met at work and just clicked - instant attraction, very intense, a bit of a whirlwind with talks of marriage. We moved in together and everything was great for the first 18months, also please note, my two children came with me. Two things happened, one of my children was a particular problem teenage tantrums and all sorts - not my partners problem but he took it on. Second thing was my partner's insistence on having lots of outside activities/hobbies that didn't include me partly due to the fact that I had the kids to look after -I couldn't really get involved with him as much as I wanted, I felt abandoned and at times taken for granted. He couldn't see this and thought I was being unreasonable and in retrospect - perhaps I was. Finally, because of me feeling taken for granted I threatened to stay out one night and when I did, this led him to believe I was with another man. That was the final straw for him and he never forgave me despite my desperate attempts to reassure him that all I wanted was to get a reaction and for him not take me for granted. Big mistake, and things were never the same. I'm now feeling he's giving me a taste of my own medicine - I could be very wrong as I would never have thought he'd be so immature - he doesn't play games, well I didn't think he did. Please help!!! Thanks Judy