I have been suffering with some symptoms since early childhood, which surprised me
that no one else figured out and supported me on, all these years I've been living
with them, thinking that it may pass and I'll overcome them, but even to this
day, the symptom are still continous and seem to have worsened over time.
This is badly effecting my ability to find work.
Not just in interviews, but in general situations, I have panic attacked where my voice
sounds all in fear and I fade out, sweat and shake and fear that people don't
like me and don't accept me the way I am.
I get low mooded too often and don't feel like cheering up.
I never know what to say to people, if it's the wrong thing and if they
answer "yeess, of course it's that way!",, my chest hurts few seconds, I get
low mooded and just want to hide away.
I've been trying to live with this problem since childhood, thinking it would go away.
If people are watching me, I can't really continue an activity or task, in general, I never seem to
finish what I started.
I start to feel ill, if I'm in a public place with too many people, I feel the need to get out.
I've been shy all my life and still am, espeically with my sweating and shaking which I can't
seem to control.
I want to be out-going like everyone else, but I can't seem to be.
I look through people, not at them and seem to over-talk them, finishing their sentence or
I don't know what to say.
I find it difficult to focus on a task, usually I skip tasks, but never mean to, but that just happens
that way. I don't wanna suffer in slience anymore.
This GP note was written, as I find it difficult to express myself face to face.