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I understand. Well I am very sorry you have been feeling this way. I would certainly suggest that given how you feel you should at least get a psychiatric assessment.
It is certainly possible that you can get these symptoms with conditions such as Personality disorders, as well as Schizophrenia and PTSD. However from what you have said you should probably consider medication to help you with this.
I certainly hope you find the help you require.
Please can you contact customer services directly who will assist you with cancelling your membership. Take care.