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Wow! That would be shocking to wake-up to! It sounds like your fiancee is very understanding - what is it about others judging you that bothers you so much? Are there other things you've done in life that you weren't so proud of that others found out about? If so, did you react the same way then?
I don't think it's stupid that you're worrying. It also doesn't sound like your behavior was intentional (i.e., I'm going to go out, get drunk, and sleep in the same bed as two others, with one of them being naked). What would it take for you to forgive yourself? Also, what would it mean if you were a bad person? We all do things we regret... but I don't think that necessarily makes us bad people. Your relationship with your best friend changed?
It sounds like you care a lot about your fiancee and how others perceive your relationship - it makes sense; however, there are certain circumstances when these types of situations are out of our control - you won't talk about it, but you can't ensure your friend or fiancee won't (it wouldn't make sense for him to... but you never know).
Have you thought about talking with your best friend about this and sharing with her your fears?